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Saturday, December 8, 2012
My Surrogate Life: my perception of a miracle part 9
It's was REALLY happening!!! That's all I could think about the whole flight!!!! Mis and I had talked about it literally for hours upon hours and it was finally coming to fruition!!!!! Once I landed in Denver we went straight to CCRM so they could do an ultra sound to confirm all systems were GO. Missy was pretty apprehensive at that point because one of the times she was set to do her own IVF, she had an ultra sound in MI with a local doctor and it looked good, however, when she went to docs ( I think it was Colorado) their ultra sound said no.
So I had the ultra sound and INDEED it showed I was totally ready. Another hurdle was crossed!!! We sat down with Dr. Surrey and talked. He said that on the 22nd, we needed to be at his office at 8 am. He told us the process of what was going to happen. He told us that Missy and Dave had 8 embryos that were frozen and wanted to know how many we wanted to transfer. I said 3.... Missy and Dave were leaning towards 2. There was a 20ish % chance that one would take, so I wanted to up odds. He also explained that the thawing process was pretty difficult (now remember, this was 9 and 1/2 years ago which is light years in technology). He said that there a substantial chance that none would make it through the thaw process and that trip would be for naught!!! And the really bad part was that they couldn't do the thaw until the morning right before the transfer..... we would have to wait until that morning to see if we could even attempt this IVF! We knew this, but hearing it again when we were so close did rob us of some of our joy, I won't lie!!! But I still FELT peace....I knew this was it!!!
We spent the next day and half enjoying ourselves. We ate and went to an old gold mine and hugged "the lucky bucket" and ate and went to Vail and ate some more. We were all very excited and nervous and wondering and expectant and a million other things all at once. The night before the transfer as I was getting for ready bed I was in my hotel room by myself. I turned on. The tv and on the screen was a rerun of Friends. It was the episode when Phoebe found out that her IVF had worked and she was carrying babies for her brother!!!! And I thought " Who else gets a sign from God via the tv that it is right and good and everything is going to work out!!!"
We got up early and went to IHOP before the bigs event and I ate 3/4 of the menu and then we headed to CCRM. We went in Dr. Survey's office and sat on pins and needles. He said, "I have some good news and bad news...... We did the thaw this morning and 2 did make it.......but 6 did not.......So, this is it" Missy instantly began crying because she really needed the comfort of having some in reserve in case this didn't work.....she always needed plan B to make it through a disappointment!!! My heart began crumbling because I couldn't bear her heart break!!! I instantly said, " never you worry...remember the whole Friend's episode sign thing....we got this....all is good!" She smiled, and as always in the midst of crushing news, focused on the positive and was excited about this IVF.
I got all ready and went in the room. We all sitting in the room and in walks a doctor decked out in scrubs pushing and incubator. In the incubator was a lone Petrie dish. He told us he was the embryologist and said the 2 embryos were in the dish. On the top of the incubator was a microscope thing. He asked if they wanted to see and for the very 1st time Missy and Dave got to see their "babies". I was on the table all draped up so no one could see any thing so I was able to see. The doctor began talking to us and come to find he, like Missy was from Michigan, and his best friend was from Alabama!!! In fact he. Had just been in Alabama in March for his BFF's family celebration. When he left I told Missy that God gave me signs via TV and her signs via doctors!!!!
Dr. Surrey and ultra sound person came in shortly. He got the embryos in a long tube thing and transferred them into my uterus. We saw them go via the ultra sound....and that was it. It took less than 10 minutes!! They then tipped the bed where my head was toward the floor and I had stay there for about 30-45 minutes. DONE!!!
I went back to the hotel and had to stay in bed....which BTW is something I do WELL. I slept a lot (which again is something I excel at)! It was now Memorial Day weekend....exactly 2 years after I had originally offered to do this!!
I flew back home and knew that in a week we would know if this worked or not....but deep down I knew.....I knew that Mis was going to finally going to hold her own baby in her arms!!! I knew that for the rest of our lives she would thank me (and cuss me) for helping her fulfill her most coveted dream!!!!!
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