My Surrogate Life: my perception of a miracle part 8

Once I returned back home, I think the clock began running double time. We had to find a lawyer to handle the epic contract. Since there was no money involved, we decided to just use 1 lawyer to handle the whole enchilada. This sounded very easy but no one knew this kind of law. Finally, someone told us about a lawyer in Birmingham and that is who we went with. I told Mis and Dave I had only 2 requirements......1. I would not do selective reduction, even if it somehow turned into a litter (which they felt the same way about) and........2. I wanted an epidural, and/or pain meds and a lot of them (as long as there was no danger to the baby(s)......I DID NOT WANT ANY PART OF A NATURAL BIRTH!!! There were also good with that!!

 So, my personal children were  4 and 6 years old by then and had no idea what was going on (and nor did they care). They were involved in T-ball and we spent a lot of time at the ball field. Missy and I began talking on the phone every single day and the month of April flew by! Things progressed a little quicker than expected, so I began the meds protocol on May 1st.

I got my calendar and checklist out and began the shots of Lupron. These  were very little shots and weren't painful at all. At that point I thought "...what is all the hub-bub about....this is nothing....." The nurse at CCRM and Missy told me that the shots were pretty painful (not the Lupron ones but the Progesterone in oil ones were) but I thought they were just trying to make sure I would be able to handle it. It wasn't going to be that bad....I felt sure (always the optimist)!!! Then I had to start the 4 estrogen patches that I had to change every other day. I also began oral Progesterone and oral estrogen. THEN came the other shot. I had to begin having  a Progesterone in oil shot every day. At that point I tried to recall exactly where the nurse said the shot needed to be......hmmmmmmm.....I remember the word butt.....yeah, that was it!!!!

SO, before I went to school that morning I got the package of syringes out an opened them. When I took one out I thought "there must be some mistake.....CVS gave me the syringes for HORSES.....these surely aren't for humans!!! Then I remembered the whole "painful" conversation and the part about the oil would make the shot thick and therefore, pretty big.

I am not sure that I have mentioned the fact that  I am extremely wimpy when it comes to pain. Sure, I was a big talker and said I can do this blah blah blah..... But then reality hit!!! Holy Molely.....I'm sure this shot would bring tears to Seabiscuit's eyes!!!!

But everyone told me about this, and I obviously down played it in my mind! So, I gave myself a good talking to and was ready to go. I got the shot ready and showed Chris were the shot needed to happen. Again, I WAS SO WRONG (there tends to be a pattern emerging)!!!! My recollection was kinda to the side where my leg attaches to my butt. I knew this was VERY wrong by the time I arrived at school and tried to sit down!!!! Lets just say that I wasn't really able to comfortable sit for 2 or 3 days. That night I told Mis and I swear she laughed for 10 minutes. I then leaned that is needed to be in my hip above my butt..... Noted!!!!

I was going to Dr. Harris every 3 days to get a ultra sound. I also had to have my progesterone and estrogen levels checked every other day. Nine years ago no local lab could get the results in the same day......so I had to go to the Hospital every other morning at 5:30 am. I had to be "admitted" each time and get my blood drawn. The whole process took about 1/2 hour. So then I would go back home and get ready and go to school. They would send the blood to Atlanta and send the results that day to the doctors in Colorado.There they would decided if I need to increase or decrease my meds. This went on for about 2 weeks and everything was right on course.

I went for another ultra sound on May 16 and the docs in Colorado said it was almost time to do the transfer. They set the date for May 22!! It was a few days earlier than we anticipated.....in fact, it meant that I was going to have to miss the last 3 days of school. Again, everyone was extremely supportive so Mis booked our tickets. We really wanted Chris to go, but the earlier date made it impossible for him to get away (the joys of owning a small business)!

On Tuesday, May 20 I was getting ready to leave for the airport at about 5 am. My mom was downstairs waiting for me. As I have said before she is THE strongest, truest, Christian that I have ever know. She told me that she had been praying for a long, long time for a miracle for Missy and Dave to have a baby and God granted that miracle.....a modern miracle, but a miracle nevertheless!!! She said God told her His plan was perfect and when we trust and believe, prayers will be answered.......maybe just not in the way we thought.! Mom said this miracle began in 1978 when we God put Missy and I in each other's life!!!! She said that this is God's perfect miracle and it has been in place for decades! We need to always remember how this all happened and what a HUGE blessing their children would be!!!!

As I got in my mini van I knew she was right! I felt God's presence once again and knew this was RIGHT....that it was meant to happen this way!! I didn't realize I had tears in my eyes until I started the car! I pulled it together and knew that I was part of miracle in action! Again, words can't explain this profound feeling, but I was indescribably grateful! I know miracles happen all the time, but I not sure many people are able to know they are part of a miracle in the time they are unfolding.....I was given that gift and I would like to thank Missy and Dave for that......I don't think either one of them are aware of that particular gift they allowed me to experience!