My Surrogate Life: my perception of a miracle part 10

When I made it back to my sweet home Alabama and my 2 boys came running up and hugged me with every ounce of their being, I got tears in my eyes. This is what it's was all about......this is what Missy had been longing for and went through hell for.....this was love its purest form!!!! It HAD to work......it just had to...period!!!

I started feeling sick. Now, I knew logically there were multiply reasons that could be the root of my sickness. For one, I had to have those horse shots every morning, not to mention the other 47 medications ( I also had to continue going to the hospital every other morning at 5:30 for the blood work that had to sent off...but that wasn't so bad then because school was out and I would go back home and get right back in bed).

The second reason could have been that I was no longer allowed to drink my diets coke (aka...the nectar of the gods)!!! Now if you know me, you know that was a MAJORLY HUGE LIFE ALTERING thing!!! I did (and still do to this day) drink 15+ diet cokes per day!!! May 21, 2003 was the last time I had my my precious liquid! My body hadn't been Diet Coke free in a very, very long time....so I am sure my body was going through DT's. BUT, in my heart and soul I was convinced that my illness was due to being pregnant!!

I was suppose to have my official blood work done to see if  I was pregnant on June 1 but I just couldn't wait. So, on Tuesday 5/27/03 I went and bought a bunch of Early Response pregnancy test. I took one the next day and nothing.....BUT on 5/29/03 I work up at 5 (because I was use to getting up and going for the blood work) and took the test and it was.......POSITIVE....DOUBLE LINE.....WINNER!!!!!

I took 3 more in a row just to be sure!!!! I was SOOOOOO ECSTATIC!!!! I went in each of my boys room and kissed their sleeping cheeks!!!! IT WORKED......I KNEW IT.....IT REALLY WORKED!!!! I was having to celebrate this silently because I didn't want to wake up Chris. I wanted Missy to be the very 1st one to know!!! So I looked at the clock and realized that Missy was just in her car on the way to work. If I had thought logically I would have waited , but I just couldn't wait ONE MORE SECOND!! So, I called her and said  "IT WORKED......IT'S POSITIVE.....I'M PREGNANT!!!! YOUR GONNA BE A MOM....FOR REAL!!!!!"""

She started yelling "NO WAY......YOUR KIDDING......NO WAY......" Over and over again!!!! She pulled off at gas station and we were both screaming and laughing and crying and talking all at once!!!!! She was trying to be cautious because we knew it was REALLY, REALLY early but we also wanted to experience every second of this unearthly joy because there was such a LONG road ahead and this kind of joy could easily be replaced with sorrow!! We decided not to say anything until the weekend with the official blood work. BUT we knew....the REAL mom and me, the gestational mom....we knew.....our hearts were full of gratefulness and love and hope and joy and thankfulness and things that there are no words for in any language......

Since I was suppose to have the blood work done on a Sunday and CCRM would not be open that day, Dr. Surrey said I could go in Friday afternoon. They would send the results straight to CCRM and they would contact us both with the results. He did warn us that it was 2 days early and the results might be a false negative, in which case I would go back on Monday to make sure. So I went in and had the blood drawn (which I must add I was getting quite good at being a pin cushion between all the blood drawing and shots each day.....always adding to my skill set!!) and waited for the call. Sure enough, they called and said it was positive. However, he said that since it was a few days early they weren't sure if it was a single or multiplies!!!

Wooooooohoooooooo!!!! Here we go.....its official! I am an INCUBATOR (still building the ol' skill set.....I know.....such the over achiever!!)!! CCRM called us separately so then we had to call each other and and celebrate again!!

CCRM said that it was EXTREMELY important to monitor and maintain my progesterone and estrogen level to the exact amounts. I would have to continue on the 4 patches of estrogen at all times (that must be refreshed every other day) and the horse shots of progesterone in oil (that Chris had to give me each day.... which was ok except when he occasionally hit a vein) oral estrogen  pills and other meds (that I will spare you the details of). In order to monitor the levels, I would continue to go to EAMC no later than 5:30 every other morning. This process would be continued for the 1st trimester until the placenta was formed and would take over. That meant that this would go on until around mid August which was when school started back.......which was PERFECT TIMING!!!

And knowing all that (and let's not forget my extreme aversion to pain) coupled with the fact that there would be NARY a Diet Coke in my future for the next 9 months.....I was not just happy, but overwhelmingly grateful and extremely thankful to do be able to implement that protocol and forgo my precious liquid!!!! SO out of character for this wimpy diet coke addicted human.....just goes to show you that miracles are very powerful things!!!

They also wanted me to go to Dr. Harris every 2 weeks so he could check me out and and I could get an ultra sound! Let me say that without Dr. Kenny Harris and Lee OB/GYN, this could have NEVER happened!!! Dr. Harris was and is extremely busy and he took so much of his personal time to work in conjunction with CCRM docs!!! He and the entire practice was so gracious in planning out appointments and ultra sounds on the exact dates that were required (and this was not easy because they were so frequent and the practice is so very booked). He even offered to make appointments for us on his days off when it was needed! The kindness and compassion that he and the entire staff showed us is not something that happens much in the medical field and I want them to know that we will be forever grateful!!!!

SO, we set up an appointment for June 16 with Dr. Harris. We would have the first ultra sound and Missy and Dave would get to meet him for the 1st time!!!

Now, it was time for me to tell my 4 and 6 year old boys.......hmmmmmmmm......how should I go about this exactly?????